There is wisdom and intelligence within that yearning, that longs to be revealed, and longs to connect to you, as much as you do.
In some ways, when we long for something so deeply we become very vulnerable. The fear is that, if I allow myself to really feel the depths of how much I long for and yearn for this, then I will be crushed if it doesn't arrive. I can't truly let myself feel this, it is far too painful.
However, I believe it is the very act of blocking out the connection which is the true pain, and in allowing that yearning to make itself heard, start whispering its truths to us, we find the way out of that darkness of fear, and towards the light of that which we seek.